Five years of frugality

At this very same day, exactly fifteen minutes before the turn of New Year’s of 2016 ~ the very first single print test run of the parent manuscript was submitted. 

Welcome to the Internet’s least visited independent thoughts on wellness and decentralised Nutritional Science.

View the video here. (done completely in just one bout of 16 hour crunch non-stop work).

Tempting. But already over budget for the week.


Frugality = opportunity for Self Enquiry. But a lesson to remain cautious.

Yes, the main tagline of this concept initiative is sombre. “Decentralised Nutritional Science; through the lens of Structural Violence”. But this is Health, unfiltered. Unpretentious, yet contemplative. This is what it takes to get “thin” or “fit” amidst involuntary impositions. Irrespective of someone else’s or collective  “semantics”.

Frugality is both teacher and reminder on harsh realisation of Economics. Nature (almost always) presents you the problem first. Then the lesson afterwards. Authenticating what enough means requires self-defining what is scarce and what is abundant.

Any “lesson” therefore is an exercise of contrasts. Vice and virtues. Fasting. And re-feeding.

You must take “life” for what it is. You will be forced, one way or another trespassing every moral “gospel” to live another day.

Of course, I do not for one second, glamourise “suffering”.

After all, income governs outcome. Every employer, every contract ~ demands every Selection Criteria answered in full ~ not “now” but yesterday. Yet nobody has time reading “cover letters”.

As one shuffles from one job service agency to another, judgment awaits in that tiny “counselling” room. Peeling off layers of dignity answering one question after another. Only to be met the same eventual bottom line ~ “It’s a number’s game.”.

Institutionalised Loop: four years in 4 seconds.

Perhaps an autobiography is after all truth-be-told ~ one giant resume.  

This is where this entire concept iniative differs. Unpretentious, frank and unfiltered. As far away from its saturated peers towards Survivorship Bias vanity. This way of life is hardly celebratory. Yet someone has to redefine what Health is, from these much unspoken branching contexts. Beyond just fixating on “NLRP3” genetic inflammasome.

Instead – if you are surviving with less food, that includes surpassing each and every training day without fiddling the phone, and whilst living (or “leaving”) each day with more empty / unused Tupperwares ~ you know you are doing something right.

Because all you are left with ~ is Frugality. Reductionism to life’s essence.

Very first public announcement of the first website (developed in IMCREATOR)


“Happiness” is inflationary.

Yes, another seemingly depressing reality. Yet there is still a reason to learn from this.

Five years living frugally enforces one to “get by”. But also heighten our senses on what is inflationary. Hint; not just money. As perplexing as this sounds – happiness, is no exception. Just like insulin resistance is inevitable the longer we  re-feed for day(s) after another ~ anything is subject to desentisization.

Happiness is merely a state of automatic compensation. You’ve reached to this state. yet what happens afterwards? (Hint: something else will always soon be forced to compensate). Nietzche fervently hated alcohol because it merely numbs the sorrows. But all that is thanks to our liver bearing the grunt of work in the background.

We are always sensitive to difficulties, yet less so for happiness.

So, time for a “visual” rationale. Or “evidence” as they call it.

This concept initiative isn’t about Survivorship Bias 6-pack after workout selfies. Alas, pressure amounts amidst all social media expectations for hedonic impressionism.  Hence for appeasing pedestrian angst below are pictures of my “best” end of every IF (18:6/20:4) weekly cycle.

That is ~ Friday PM / end of Week’s last of the four x 250+ volume depletion training session.

Left: 2019 Right: 2020
Left: 2019 Right: 2020 first end of week full training, after COVID lockdown, no refeed.

Gratifying? Indeed. Attainable? Eventually Yes. But happily forever? Subjective.

Recalling my obsession to the lowest “attainable” body fat % from early years of CKD+IF ~ was just shy under 10%. Did I feel good? “No”, but Life went on. But was it worth it? Subjective.

Why? because it gets objectively difficult to surpass this subjective “happiness” compass repeatedly, without increasing reliance on contingencies. Soon, I’d rely on more than just aspirin ~ pre/intra or even during mid training to not risk yet another L4/5/S1 disc shock/s.

There we have it ~ Happiness does not have a “fixed” goal post. But here’s the “good” thing. Only you can potentially move or sideline that post. Want it sooner? Move it sooner. But be prepared to face all repercussions, that much sooner.

“Happiness” after all has an extremely short half-life*. I lost count, the far-too-many occasions when even the slightest of gratification received then something else clouds over the very next second.

*In the final (optimistic) hour/s of editing this article despite bleary-eyed from the 16 hour-crunch work on the FCPX video  – I received a phone call from Big Brother. In just 15 minutes  – my life for the next few months or year is “settled”. Perhaps in the courtroom.

Misfortunes always readily overlap triumphs. Alas, this is just a glimpse of life, in Structural Violence.

“Good” or “bad” ~ Inevitably, anything happens for a reason. It is there to make us “stop” and think. From the moment, for the moment.

The very first pocket book. June 2015.
The very first pocket book as draft “concept” Humility Through Frugality. June 2015.


If Nutrition is ration. Then fasting is the rationale.

I took a good month or two, working around-the-clock revising my 9-year old concept project Hydrant Booster™ to appease future employers. This “reminded” me there is  something “good” about this way of life, after all. I used to be after all, a former white collar in the design industry.

Authenticity is all about self-enquiring between episodes of contrasts between what is scarce and what is abundant. If we simply remain fixated to just one (1) perpetual consumptive pattern (hint: paternalism), forever after ~ is routine for stagnation.

Intermittent Fasting therefore, is central in this concept initiative. It reinforces all these as both philosophical and physiological ~ exercise ~ “selfishly”. Not for others. But for and from the self, first and foremost. 

Fasting is a biological state honouring nature’s persistent theme ~ “Economics”. Its very definition of “managing the household” ~ is there and everywhere not just around us. But within us, every waking second in languages we often do not understand ~ Biochemistry. Antioxidant systems, bone remodelling, electron transport chain, protein synthesis, methylation ~ to name a few.  


Privacy and Authenticity goes hand in hand. “Binging & Purging” are only semantics.

Whenever “Dieticians” raise their pitchforks at me, for example ~ “You are glamourising starvation”.  My response? “Fair enough. Do what’s right for you.” . Whatever “Right” means is unadmittedly quite selfish, if we think about it.

I’ve downed pizzas, ice creams, and donuts on refeed days. Yet thankfully nature responds with fullness and refusals to further eat until I have “enough” and thereby allow fasting to begin again. That ~ feels “right” to me.

Alas, dieticians and their oath for “Health” remains forever married to “clean eating”.

Refeed days” indeed sounds “anarchic”, “vile”, and “abusive”. But it all relates back to us as a matter of working with it. Not against it.

I am not proclaiming this will work on anybody. But anybody should remain open to self-authenticate their own intake of rations (“reasons”). Should they instead remain slothful ~ then stagnation is likely deserved. I don’t “judge” them, because quite frankly, I am already too tired to argue anyway.

Five years living this life forced me at times to bargain with “Hell”. “Comfort zone” is a deceptive Heaven. But Hell remains the disciplinary contrast. What matters is ownership inbetween these two themes; in privacy.


Supplements / Contingencies are still important.

Now – the practical knowledge for many, though perhaps not for all circumstances*.

*Despite this Concept Initiative’s five long years-contemplation towards decentralised Nutritional Science ~ all may not ever constitute as linear “panacea” nor scientific “clairvoyance”. No dietician irrespective how decorated abbreviations attached to their name ~ can ever “save” every”one” else. Please acquaint with the indemnity and overview of this Concept Initiative. 

Biology itself is expendable. Minerals, glycogen, ketones, fatty acids and/or glucose included.If one argues that foods themselves are sufficient for “everything”, then I shall nod “very well”. Let time decide. Until “repercussions” compel them wrong. Five years ago I used to think the same. Yet time and time again Nature forced me to face adaptations repercussions. Indeed if anything is expendable. Then for how long can one  maintain or “reason” with our own selves ~ without “complaining”?

Supplementations therefore are there as pragmatic safety net.

The longest “survived” supplement in my inventory is a three year (beyond printed expiry) ALCAR. Just shy about two months before the final editing of this post still remained usable to my needs. Next to that, non-negotiable ergogenic essentials. Creatine monohydrates, and at discretion ~ Citrulline Malate. People think they’re just for muscle building vanity, I disagree. Although I am no longer subscribed nor convinced with Beta Alanines, and BCAAs they certainly remain in The Parent Manuscript as open for individual preferences. So long as one’s income leverages all outcomes.

Then, the specific minerals. Magnesium, Zinc, Potassium and Calcium. Though technically speaking I do not “supplement” Calcium – I rely on crushed hardboiled eggshells (then dehydrated 120 deg C on the oven till crispy). And only sprinkle this by tiny finger pinch amounts on desserts, and sometimes on post workout shakes.

General literatures suggest that potassium appear to be the most-oft compromised mineral amidst low carbohydrate interventions [1]. 2]. Of course, as with everything else of Nutritional Science ~ this may yet be a matter of individual variability.

What base of salts for each of the above (Mg, K, Na)? A mix of acidics Tartrate*, Chloride and Citrate, together with alkaline Bicarbonates are sound contingencies for various contexts. Bicarbonates for pre/intra workouts as well as also during fasting windows on soda water + ACV for instance. Chlorides lightly on meals, not to intrude palatability. Potassium Chlorides, when added with a little ALCAR are useful for maintaining conversational composure amidst very difficult, objectifying and/or scrutinising situations. Think prolonged job interviews, prolonged conversational scrutiny, anticipatory stigma, condescendence etc.

* Tartrates especially potassium tartrate in “Cream of tartar” baking products do remain as my go to potassium during fasting black coffees. Only a finger pinch  amount suffices. Although keeping in mind that mineral balance is highly individual. Symptoms of overdose is just as bad as underdose.

How much dosaging in all of these is again dependent to individual needs, metabolic responses, and thus context- dependent.

Usually, my fasting 18-21 hour windows involves at least approx 1.5L water with Himalayan or iodised salts. Then saving the potassium salts (cream of tartar or potassium chloride), in tiny sprinkle amounts for afternoon black teas or coffees. On occasions I’d finger lick amount of rock salt crystals. Especially in stressful anticipated situations ~ I’d prepare a mini mix of potassium chloride and Himalayan salts in my pocket at all times.

I have long asserted that protein supplementations are necessary. To say they are “not food” is egoistic ignorance. esp. if one never takes their cost per serve analysis to account.

…And especially how essential they are at gently breaking each and every intermittent fast ~ both comfortably and pragmatically.

Whey concentrates remained to this day my budget preference. However, pea protein isolates, despite at times I do not particularly favour their taste profile when consumed entirely in liquids – nevertheless find their “clay” aftertaste useful for dessert recipes or meat replacements.

I anticipate to buy these proteins every two or three months; depending on existing supply. Usually amounting to less than $80 or even less.

The longer one submits to CKD+IF , the more likely one is sensitive to sweetness. So much so all “flavoured” commercial protein supplements that were once tolerable, now tastes very sweet to the point of slight sickness. Combining both flavoured with unflavoured 50/50 (or as per to taste) solves this problem.

I could go on and on about other key essentials. Aspirin, Vitamins D, E, K2 Mk4s & Mk7s, Betaine HCLs Pepsins, Chromium, MSM, Citrulline, etc. But all that is reserved in the parent manuscript, and the dAGES manuscript.

Thank you.

There were a lot more in mind awaiting to be spoken out but didn’t. Refining these “turn-of-phrases” alone literally takes days bridging one sentence to another.

Beyond structural violence, comes next the unexplained struggle why this concept initiative remains unrecognised much to the outside world. This initiative’s content is not about sensationalism. Even less further ~ responding to vehement toxicities, condescends, bullying and moral pitchforks.

Where it all began: the first pocket book
Where it all began: the first pocket book. June 2015.
First ever version printed Blurb® Book. Submitted for print December 2015

At least, five years have taught me much.

Happiness is inflationary. Pain is the contrast.

I am forced to “Love” Big Brother. Till death, do us part. Anyone reading this may think it is just “another day”. Indeed. This day, just like any other day, is a saving grace. A taxation ~ towards our ending mortgage/s.

Every virtue spares a vice, and vice versa.

Fate deserves both. Just not at the same time.






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